Struggling to get up. Falling again. Standing up again.

     And yes, I'm back! Prolly it's been a month since my finger breadth left and marked some thoughts that usually throw together carelessly on my mind. I've been busy for the whole school year and now, it's the last 2 days of our summer. Will be back on Monday for our summer class. Yes, I'll spend my summer @ my dear DLSHSI campus. My summer activities? Will gather up my classmates and will have our picnic "lunch" together. Go on and take some pictures for the activities will be participating. Buy,borrow and read some educational books or other reading sources that will be needing and that are related to. Use internet for online search that really has a big help for our things-to-do such as homework. Exercise our minds for another knowledge (i.e. facts, truths, principles). Shop for some of my school stuffs. Have my sunbathe along the smoky haze crossroad. Yes! I'll be having my regular travel from home to my school for this summer. :P This is all about Summer Assignment! Yay. Another quest in my life. :) Every adventure always have an uncertain outcome. But with God, everything has a GREAT outcome. :")

   Unfortunately, before this second paragraph started, Rockmelt begun to close and I don't know why that happens. Good thing, Blogspot has its edit post>drafts. In that case? I felt God. In times of my depression or pessimistic behavior, He always make to us that He will do anything just for us. Ang galing ni God noh? God is good and He's the best!

     Lately, I've been so lame, lonely, depressed or tend to be pessimist about myself. In a way that, I easily get jealous, mad, irritable, judgmental, and so whatever. That I can't have this-and-that things, the things that I really wanted. I must be true to myself, Selfishness' set in motion within myself. As this day ends, I realized how blessed I am. I may not have the luxuries or the amenities but I'm thankful to God that I have this things called BLESSINGS. Having with my family? We may not be rich enough but Mum can enlist me @ good school. She supports my really-needed-things. Give me enough allowance and stuffs. I have the presence of my Dad whose at least have his support to be good in my own study. My 4 brothers that sometimes, in my need-help-days, I have them. 4 barako's that make fun tho there are really naughty and hmm. :)) This family are still different to others. But same with being unperfect, familyhood enough. And so, I love them. I thank them for not aborting me; for not giving me to other family; for giving me shelter, clothes, and food to live. But then, they gave me more. Unlike to other child who are desperately asking for alms just to say "pampatawid gutom lang po". See how we're blessed? Secondly, having my friends. I may not have plenty or lot of friends. But I have friends who stay and true enough to you. They are the reasons why in my problems, I have them to share with. The times that I can't share to anyone but to them. In times when I need someone's presence and they are their to hug you tight and cuddle you. There are friends who let go and took Good Bye's but then, there are people who suddenly enter in your crazy life and say Good Hello's. Until you find each other's differences and acceptance. And see who's the true one. But still, I thank God because I have my friends that I know that I can always count with.

     And of course, I'm really thankful because the greatest blessings I had was my boyfriend, Alaine Cristoffer Orolfo. He's 1 year younger than me. Age really doesn't matter when it comes to Love. I'm happy with him. I know that we're still young and we still have a lot things to encounter. But so far, he's there enough for me. makes me happy. I think that's enough to describe him. :) Happy? Single word but has its thousand meanings :P

     Enough is enough. I shouldn't be ask for more. but instead.... I'll enjoy my life, do the right things, and be thankful for everything. God is good. He will never leave us ALONE. Just trust Him. Smile :)

God. Please help me. :(

     Yes. I've been busy for this past few weeks due to Final week and end of the 2nd semester in 1styear. And then got too bored and had a lots of energy that was taken away by my academics stuffs. Again, here I am, in front of PC typing this stuffs. I had my eye check-up a while ago. It took me so long waiting for my turn. And suddenly the old lady supposedly after my name asked me if it is okay with me to switch our names and I let them to, since she seems pity because of her eye irritation or whatever it is.

     Yesterday, me and Acy had our date. It was actually unplanned. I supposed to be with my classmates that will be having a farewell party @ Kawit. Since, it was so far from my place and I don't have enough money. I decided to be with Acy since he told me that he will be absent on that day. So, we went to Tagaytay. Yes, it's our first time to go there without knowing how to commute all the way long their. So, we just asked the jeepney drivers and it's good that there are really approachable Same with the other passengers. As we land the place, the guy, with a horse named "Mutya", asked us to have a horse backride. But we just went there for our Zipline that's why we lack of money for other stuffs. Took pictures, ate lunch, then had our zipline. and it was really AWESOME! Great experience for both of us. It was fun. So much fun actually. How I wish, we can do it again and again. If we just have enough money :)) Haha. Good thing, there's a photo souvenir, and we both find cute :"> Hahaha. I miss it.

   Life is beautiful. But one thing I just worried about. How I wish, sooner by now. God may answer my prayers. I know sometimes  that I'm not brave enough. As I type this, I want to cry so hard. I don't know what I should do. I know that I did the wrong thing. But please, don'y punish me like this. :( I want to have a chance to make things better. To be a better person. And to do all things right. Please God, I need you. I thank you for everything. I was so blessed having my family, friends and Acy. And even my studies. I don't want these things be affected for the wrong things I've done. Please Lord. Help me. I know you have a reasons for all this. I'm begging, guide me. I don't know what I'm going to do. I need you. Lord, I trust you.. And I know, you will never leave me. ♥

How can a woman be expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being

   It's my first post for March 2k11. :)

   Didn't noticed that it's been a long time since my last blog. This past few days, I really enjoyed everything. Tho there are times or circumstances that really ruined my day and bothered my mind, sort of. :)) To school stuffs and same with love life and others. Anyway, it was a blast! First thing that I was truly proud of was I passed Anatomy for Midterms, though I didn't reached my aim grade, since I had a bet with Acy for a hangout slash(/) a date with him on Saturday, which is yesterday. He still treated me and I really enjoyed the adventure with him. Everything was unplanned. We just both go with the flow. Haha.

   So, yesterday was unforgettable experienced and a joyride with him. We're parallel when in comes to being adventurous. Once we're together, we do lots of escapade stuffs. We both woke up around 1pm in the afternoon. And I have a practice to attend by 1pm as well. So great. :)) Venue for our practice was in Imus, @Kuya Pao's crib. Took a shower, eat, fixed my things, ended by 2:30. Tryc-Jeep to Oli-Jeep to GMA-Jeep to Imus. All way long From Laguna to Imus, one of the jeepney we had ride on has been stucked up along Dasma. Rode another jeepney then got @ Golden City (Imus) around 5pm. :)) FAIL! My groupmates was already done practicing and just sing along till they about to go home. So, me and Acy decided to went to MOA to watch Pyromusical. Since, it was too hassle to wait for a bus to baclaran, ride on a jeepney. And along the baclaran, rode a mini jeep aka yellow cab way to MOA. Haha. Moa was overcrowded by people and as well with cute different breed of dogs. Pyromusical was supposed to start by 7. Acy decided to buy a ticket since he's really have the desire to watch out for it. Pyro for Japan started by 7:30 and continued by Pyro in Canada. Japan was really cool and cute but Canada seems fantastic. Ended the Pyro around 9pm. :)) Along watching it, suddenly rain poured and we don't have umbrella to used for. Good thing we have our extra clothes. Haha. Tho we ate pizza before watching fireworks, starvation attacks upon us. Supposedly, we'll buy food for take out. All food chains and resto was filled with people around it. Decided to gome home instead. And I should go home to MY house. :)) We crossed along to every heavy drops of rain just to find for a taxi. But others have their passengers but some are just stupid that they choose they passenger's way. They're all invulnerable. Walked across the road till a good taxi driver gonna gave us a ride. About 2 hours of waiting and my tears was about to run down. One taxi driver has been stopped in front of us, and his passenger walked rapidly to find his friend. Waiting for his passenger to come back. But since he took so  long, I asked the driver that we'll just pay his previous passenger's fee. Good thing, he agreed with me. He Yey! Since it was already 11pm in the evening, rather Acy's gonna bring me back home. Decided to slept @ their home. <3

   Whew, tiring day but an AWESOME experience. We didn't make to have Ice skating again but still, tho it was a so tough, all nasty and rugged things are worth it. This is love ♥. Through hardships and crazy stuffs, he never left me. And one of the best things about him that I really appreciate to. And that's why I love him. In my every failures, he still gives me a reason to smile and hold on to. :)

Know thy self, know thy enemy. A thousand battles, a thousand victories.

"Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any other."

   Happy day :) Anyway, currently having an anatomical conversation with my man now. Haha. Can't define much about this day. Tho there are some almost get on my nerves, Acy's right. I shouldn't mind them. But what I've realized is that I wanted to say thank you for those who hated me or something, those guys make me much stronger for every circumstances. I shouldn't be bothered on them besides it's not my problem to worried about. I may be involved but I know I did the right thing.    I know it's hard to get along with that people. I have my own life and I make my own decisions. They don't control my every actions. So what's the point to be affected from them? I'm not perfect. I used to be emotional sometimes. And there are times that I was already hurt. But there's someone who tries to wipe all my tears and hugged me in my downfall moments, my boyfriend. And there's my friends, my real friends, who always there and makes me laugh all the times. And of course, my family. They are my no.1 inspiration since they have a great expectations on me.

   Yesterday, Funda midterm grades already released. From 83.25, I got 87.85. Good thing. Didn't expect much from it. :") Need more improvements tho. Waiting for AnaPhysio grade, I don't want to expect something where I shouldn't be regret soon. But I hope that I can get a passing grade. Not just a passing but a high grade. :) Surprised about my grades in other subjects and I should keep it up. And yes, like what our Guidance Counselor told me, don't let others distracted you from what you are doing. She's right. Don't let others ruin your life from a non-sense stuffs. Live life to the fullest. :) Enjoy it. God has a reasons from all things happening right from this very moment. and He has His own purpose why this things trying to happen.

   Lots of stuff to be done in this finals. Thesis paper for English and Filipino. Defense @ the same time. I shouldn't forgot the dresses that I'll be wearing. Simultaneously, a group reporting about different systems in Anatomy. And hell Endocrine System assigned to our group. Scientific paper and hmm? What more? Maybe, RetDem for Funda. Fudge, I need to printed out our notes for 2 major subject. Tomo's gonna be a nerdy/geeky day for me. So that, a Holy Sunday with my man for Sunday :) I promised to myself, that after this semester and once I've passed all the subjects, I'll treat myself and will surely waste my summer to a social life. But maybe now, I should lessen it and burden myself to focus on my studies. Besides, it's a 3-weeks grievance. So I should do my very best and exert my fullest effort. :)

   Now, I'm happy. Alaine Cristoffer Aguilar-Orolfo is the one that I shouldn't lose. And worth to hold on. He's the reason for my every smiles. Through all the good times and bad times, he never left me. We encountered so much quarrels with different issues and problems. It gets to the point that we almost give up and let go. But here we are, entangled hands saying, "we'll keep holding on" and not just holding on but staying from each other to whatever may happen, we'll let it solve together. I don't want to lose him, he's all I need. My tears almost run down on my cheeks because to every drops of this lacrimal glands, it says that, I deserve to be Happy :) 

I do not regret one moment of my life :)

   Here @ my room with Acy on the phone call. Since he asked me to post here, I do it so. Haha. Anyway, find this day a GV! Had a great morning. :) Tho I got sulked @ him yesterday's night due to his sleepyhead again. So, our morning welcomed by some of our previous quizzes in AnaPhysio. I got failed to some quizzes, I felt disappointed tho. But I'm still not losing hope. I know that I can pass. I can pass through this AnaPhysio. :)

   For our activity in AnaPhysio a while ago, we had our blood typing. And I got Type AB+. Rare blood type that's why I find it so cool. :) Haha. MiniPrac and quizzes followed. And I don't know what the hell I wrote on my paper. Haha. It's the first quiz in Finals. Whew, last chance. So I should be better. Do my best and have the extra effort.

  After my class, Acy's waiting me outside the campus. Had our dinner @ KFC, fully loaded baby :) Went home and people @ home welcomed me to their slumberdom. -.-" They are all sleeping already except to my eldest bro. Telling me that we have already wifi @ home and my touchpad has already a keyboard. Yey! Haha. So I'm now using lappy here @ my room. Playing musics and other stuffs. I had fun being with him. I miss him. :")

   It's kuya Brian's birthday. Yey, I don't know what are the happenings for today. :) But surely, liquors all day will be exist! :)) Acy's gonna be here latuuur. YEHEY! Another sweet day with him. I should be more inspired with this. Haha. Anyway, so much with this. I more prefer to talk with him in the phone rather this effin' stuffs. haha. :") Ciao. :*

Education is not preparation for life; education is life itself.

   It's been a long time since my last post here. From the past few days, many happenings and memories happened. Bonding that is truly unforgettable.

Feb.13, 2011 Sunday

   It's a day before <3's day and at the same time, our anniversary. He fetch me @ our house and left home early morning. Good thing, there's a near bus along our way to Olivares. Supposedly, me and Acy gonna have our solo date. Since we meet up his mother and ate @ Manila, we first went there to alms for a penny. But then, Acy changed plans and said that we just go to Moa with his family. Had our ice skating with his ate. And Acy is a "fast learner" that I can't go along with him. Skating @ the middle of the "arena" without fall. It breaks my heart. Haha. But I'll be learning soon. Hopefully. Then took up our lunch. His Mama and ate already left us. So we decided to play bowling. And after that, played billiards. After a tiring "mall adventure", we went to "Foot for God" (i think?) and had our foot spa. It was so relaxing. May be expensive, worth it tho. I may be got pissed on him since he changed our plans, but I enjoyed it. Bonding with his family was a fun experience. :)

Feb. 14, 2011 Monday

   It is monday and so, we have both classes. And it's valentine's day and our 1st Anniversary. YAY! Tho we are busy in our class. he fetch me after class and surprisingly, he gave me a bouquet and letters form his classmates. Section actually. Haha. And so, since my gift for him aren't prepared yet due to a busy days. I just bought a cake. Maybe I'll just give him a post-valentine/anniv gift. Also, we played badminton and had a fun roadtrip with him. :) Very happy and contented for what we have now. 

End of cmy morning class now. Gonna back this lappy now. Ciao. :)

Nothing's perfect, the world's not perfect. But it's there for us, trying the best it can; that's what makes it so damn beautiful

   Home sweet home. ♥

   Mid exam was oveeeeer! Sleepless nights and early wake up will be invisible for 3 days. Yey! Hoping for a GV for the results and Midterm grades. Whew. (...) Okay, actually.. I'm not in the mood to post a blog for today. My mind doesn't comprises ideas to share for. AnaPhysio may drained the intelligence on my cerebrum and replaced sternocleidomastoid, bulbospongiosus, tensor fascia latae, and stuffs. Gee. It's already 1:30 and while Acy is on his retreat, we both texting each other. Crap. I really miss him. Valentines and our 1 year are already proximate and I still don't have the idea how we'll celebrate it and how I'll make it special. Anyway, I'll just spend this whole weekend with him and hopefully on the exact date of Valentines. I hope, though I may not surprised him or gave some special stuffs to him. I wanted him to be happy with my presence. :) I love him and don't wanna let go. He always made me smile and to my all downfall times, he always lifted me and gves me the courage to be strong enough. He just wanted to tell me that no matter what, he will never leave me behind. And I can prove it. He really does.

   I don't know how I feel today. I was about to cry while typing this shit stuffs. Maybe because, since I can't hug and kiss him tonight, I'm feeling good that I can express this feelings trough this. This mixed-emotions just tells me that I really miss him and I really do. I'm just happy that I have him. A guy where to my shit things I've done, to my immaturity, to my aggresive attitude, he understands me and never let himself get mad at me. He never feels to me that he wanted to give up despite to all of this. We're not perfect. We fought several times from light things to hardest one. But the most special twist about that was after the secretions of lacrimal gland and so whatever medical terms it may be, we make things more sweeter than before. Stronger than before.

   I just know that, from the bottom of my hypothalamus, I love him. ♥

Hell week for both of us.

Feb. 6, 2011
Sunday
   I did a little note on my phone before the said day ends.
   "A crazy day with my man, As I was on my way home, I can't explain how I suddenly smiled with unknown reason. Actually, I can't defined this day other than a single word which is HAPPY. We went to Festival Mall in Alabang. Bought his new black shoes that he'll be using to his promenade. And also, a zippered-necktie. Walked along with the crowded people because various actresses and actors will have their mall tour which is in Festival. Since  we both want to overcrowd with them. Rather than taking them pictures and watched over them, We took pictures with each other. And we watched a movie entitled "Love and Other Drugs". Good movie. Seductive tho. Haha. Anyway, this day was a blast. I enjoyed it much. It doesn't seem that this was my midterm week and I'm still not prepared. Still not prepared. Still doesn't have the knowledge to take the exam. Go me! I can do this. Just smile. :)

   And yes, it's the second day of examination. and Funda for tomorrow. Acy is @ Sofitel right now, having their JS Promenade. Monica, our Chinese friend, went to our dorm and invited us to take up dinner because she's so starving, So me and Nathz decided to join her and we ate @ Countryside. So, here we now at our dorm, Supposed to study, but we just all chattering around. Monica is saw pretty. :") Haha. Shizzz.

   I hope that Acy may enjoyed their night. :") Anyway, I need to study again. Study and Study. 2 more major exams and happy days after. Whew. GOD IS GOOD! XD

Word of the day: Kasi, maganda ako :))

   Okay, I defined this day as F-U-N. Right! It's bangag day with my man. Woke up @ around 8am I think? Then have a bonding moment with him. Soundtrip while looking @ slideshow on my phone. Like edited one. We also done with the game on my phone, Bounce Tales. Haha. =)) Whew. Simultaneously, singing loudly and dancing wildly like hell. Headbang to the fullest. Yea, a crazy wake up welcomed our morning. As we stood up @ the bed, had our morning exercise. HipHop Abs mah' niggah! =)) Exaggerated exercise in their sala, laughing at the same time. So, got tired by 5mins less. Haha. Supposed to go home by 11 or 12. But since Acy's gonna attend wedding, his tita invited me to come with them. I shouldn't be accompanying them since I was too shy to confronted their "neighborhoodsss" and I didn't brought any formal clothes to wear, instead they lend me blouse, skirt and sandals. And Acy must be kiddin' that he finds me "gorgeous" with that outfit. Geeez. :") Hahaha. Anyway, I enjoyed it tho. And yes, we just laughed all day long with the words "kasi, maganda ako". Haha. I may not elaborate more about this day but I may say that this day is an unforgettable experienced for us. Since we fought from past few days. We're okay. Not just okay. But we're happy together.

   As I went home, my dad confronted me about my course. Since latest news about Nursing nowadays are becoming unwanted, he suggested me to shift on PT. Gaaahd, I'm freaking becoming brainsick of the hell Anatomy, and if ever I'll pass that subj. I'm proud and willing to continue my Nursing course. That's not a hell joke. I'm doing my best for it. :) And who knows, by the time I'll be graduating, Nursing will be indemand more than others. Haha. So much for that. I shouldn't forget Anatomy for this weekend. Midterm exam gonna be on next week already. Go me.. I know I can :) And of course, I shouldn't skip mass for tomorrow. Whew.

   Another stress days and weeks. I can do this. My parents have a lot of expectations on me. I shouldn't fail them. I should triple not just double my extra effort on my academics. Things are just in place, in God's will and in His plans. Better thing that I should do is to make things in place by doing them right. Shortcomings may not be controlled. We can't able to learn to be brave without any circumstances in our lives. Giving up isn't the solution to it. But rather, we should be brave enough  because each problem has a lesson to learn with. :) Just smile. Everything has a reason. God is with us, helping. :) He never left us.

Chaos day.

   This day was unexpected slash(/) chaos day. First day of Lasallian day and I find the opening boreeeeeng! =)) Fudge! Anyway, after the competition of the streetdance, me together with Ely, Rich, Mari and MJ planned to go to MOA. It's good to have a new experience with new circle of friends. :")

   So from Dasma, rode a bus to Baclaran and minijeep to Moa. Haggard roadtrip. :)) Why the Pilipino drivers tend to overcrowd their jeepneys? For a jeep that is good for 8 persons, they force to overcrowd 10 persons on it. Guhreaaaat! We're like sardines in a one tiny can. Stinks! :P

   As we arrived @ Moa, we're all straving! Ate lunch @ Mang Inasal and desert @ DQ. Ow Blizzard, why you're so cold but yet you makes me so hot? =)) My tommy's bloated tho. Hihi :"> Played stuffs. First time to experienced in Extreme chorva. (I don't know the name was, forgot it) Anyway, it's a 3D movie ride actually.  Played also @ Tom's world. Took pictures everywhere until Mari's cam got deadbatt, Shiiz, I miss Sammy lieeeeek hell :( But yet, took pictures from cellphone. =))

   Supposed to have our iceskating blast. But since we find expensive on it, we decided to play bowling. But as we arrived @ Bowling Center, we didn't know that socks are required for it. Socks @ Bowling Center is a feeling of regret to waste for. But then, me and Ely decided to buy socks @ DepStore, 3 socks for 89.00. Tho reaching from Bowling Center to Depstore is too tiring to walk to. Playing Bowling is worth it. :)) I had fun. It's my first time but then, my first game I got a STRIKE! woo. Tiyamba! =))

    And yes, because of this freaking stuffs, my wallet blown away. =)) Haha. As we went on our way home, heavy traffic strikes. Hell. The shit girl seating in front of us scolded us to shut up. Crap! The hell we care with her? Haha. =)) We rode a jeepney from Dasma bayan to Area C, didn't noticed that we are already overtook our way. And MJ said "lagpas na tayo" instead of saying "para!" Geeez! Fun day! It was a nice experience. Unforgettable actually. Bowling was great! :)

   Not that much happy. I'm not with Acy. And on the later part of this day, we misunderstand each other because of some certain stuffs that we shouldn't be bother about. Anyway, we ended OK! Not just okay but HAPPY. That's why I love him. We let ourselves be opened on each other. :) More days means more adventures! And I want that adventures be done with him. :) This day was fun, and Acy made that complete. He made this day HAPPY for us. :) And with God, He never left us. A blast. RetDem tomorrow and I'm hoping for a GV. Whew. THANKYOU God! >:D<

Not to give up.

   I'm not in the mood to make a blog today actually. Don't know what gives me the way to do so. (...) CV.CV.CV. So I can't help on clicking in my Cityville site. I'm pretty bored to play it tho. :)) Haha. Hell.. I don't know how I'll start this blog. CV is such a big disturbance. Haha. Anyway, since Acy told me that he wanted to read this non-sense blog, I should finish what I have started. Tho freaking stuffs will be just said all through out on this blog. Mom and Dad aren't here @ home. Sweet. Will have their Onyt @ Tagaytay with my Mom's circle of friends. Yea, how I wish someday. We'll have a family bonding or a outing will be better. Haha. Been busy in school, work, and other stuffs.

   Yesterday night was guhreat. Find that night a bomb dot com. It's just a full of happiness being with Acy. No Fights. No Argues. But Yes to Love. Short time tho but I cherished ever sec. with him. He's actually tired and dizzy that day, but still, he fetch me all way long from his school and Manila to Dasma. He's obliged to fetch me every Friday. Haha.

   So, it's Saturday which means a rest day? I hope so. Next week's gonna be a busy week. Lasallian days, Retdem, MiniPrac simultaneously for that week. Guhreat! :S I actually need to study right now. Not just now, but I MUST study every single day. I'm in a troublesome situation right now. Midterms should be GV to me specially for AnaPhysio. Now that Acy's gonna have his exam @ my school. Which means, for the next school year, I can be with him everyday. That is, IF. Yeah, there's a big IF.... If I will pass my course. Whew. Yeah, I can do this. Not just to myself nor to be with Acy. But I should do this also for my parents. I don't want to fail them. I know, they have a lot of expectations on me. And so, I shouldn't make them to feel depressed. Yeah, I've realized how this academic stuffs are important. Then, I should give importance to them. I should value what I have. I don't want that someday, I will be conscience-striken for what I turned things to. I should kill this indolence from me. If other's can pass all through out of this. I also can, if I have the passion to do it so.

   Yeah, I shouldn't give up. Like from the quote I've read. It goes something like this: "The worm crawl inch by inch just to make it on Noah's Arc just to save itself" It just tells that, how tiring or hard it was, we shouldn't give up. If we will wanted to. Right? It inspires me that how long, how hard, how tiring, how a burden to us may it is, there's no such thing as a "I give up" words if I wanted to make it for my success. At the same time, I should enjoy the things that I am doing. And I'll prove to myself, after this, I will prized myself because at the end, I made it. :)

Live your life to the fullest.

"Wear a smile - one size fits all."

   It's been a 2 weeks or more since my last post here. Been busy for this Midterm and incoming Finals. Prelim grades are already released. Good enough except only to our major major AnaPhysio. Almost of my classmates including me got disappointed for the results. Some cried. Pretend the acceptance tho. When I saw my grade, my hands are shaking and I felt like~ I wanted to scream out and get wild from the extent of my disappointment. Looking forward to someone who'll barely comfort me.

   Yesterday was our 11th monthsary of my man. Got sulked @ him because he's almost close to fail his promise to me that he will fetch me on that day from Manila. And I sincerely need his open arms to comfort me. Tho we shared each other's tears and my mind was in nowhere. Still, he did his promise and made me happy. :)

   Now was a rainy weekend. I wanted to cry hard to ease this pain. I merely wanted to pass. I'm willing to stay in DLSHI and graduate as a nurse. So, maybe instead of being depressed despite of a failing grade. I should strive hard to motivate myself to study well and to exert more effort from my full extent of willingness. Rather hate the Anatomy, I should love it. AnaPhysio was a challenging subject. I shouldn't give up. HOPE never turned as invisible. We still have the Midterm and Finals to recoup our failing grade. I believe and with God, I know that there's no impossible. Everything's gonna be all right if I'll just turn things in place. It's a free choice. Study to have a high grades or social life but with failing grade. There's really some instances that we need to take a risk to something to make one thing possible. I shouldn't regret for what choice I'll take. But I know it is better to do.

   Study. It should be my habit. Life is more beautiful if we are learning each day. I'm now in 17 and turning as 18. Big enough to handle things, make decisions and go on with my own life. Tho there's the support of my family, friends and Acy, It's my own choice on how I'll handle my life, right. I'm choosing to be happy. If I really wanted to. I should love what I am doing and to the world I entered. 17, still young and a right time to focus my self to academics. And for me to be able to have the courage to carry this things, I needed my family, friends, professors and of course, Acy. They are the ones who never left me through my failures nor shit attitude. I'm thankful for the things that I have and so, I need to treasure and esteem these blessings. Go on girl, I know I can do this. :)

Another Tiring day.:(

Its second day of school, and  I'M FREAKING tired and I feel sick, I want my Mom, I need her, I miss her, I wanna be with her. Damn, I'm exhausted. It's my second post in her Blog without her knowledge, "Again". HAHA!

My Headache. I want to sleep but I have to finish the summary of "The Legend of the Virgin's Jewel". Does this story exist? HAHA! I breaks my Brain, literally. HAHA! I hate this report because I'm tired, laziness attack and I do this post rather than finishing the report. Haha. That me, and I can't help it.

This day, I'm just tired and missing my Girl so much. Hehe. But, I should do what should I need to do. That's all for now. Bb.:)
-Acy♥

I Just Love This Gurl, "NO MATTER" what Happen.:)

It's our first day of school this 2011, and it so Boooooring. My Girl is so Upset and she thinks so Negative. As Her Boyfriend. I tell her to think positive and Everything is Posible with God. And she Texted me:

                    "Opo2.. Best thing I should do. pray"

It's the best thing to do when you don't know what to do is to talk to God "Heart-to-Heart" and you end up with an Solution. I'm Happy even though my Girl is Sad but do her best to Smile and doesn't lose hope and it encourage me to Hold on and it's the best trait she has, "Holding ON".

I didn't tell her this shit I'm doing and I'm pretty sure that she'll be suprise because she didn't expected me to do this and I'm doing this for her to know how im HAPPY having her.

I just wanna tell her that I'm CONTENTED, HAPPY and I LOVE HER.
-Acy.♥