Struggling to get up. Falling again. Standing up again.

     And yes, I'm back! Prolly it's been a month since my finger breadth left and marked some thoughts that usually throw together carelessly on my mind. I've been busy for the whole school year and now, it's the last 2 days of our summer. Will be back on Monday for our summer class. Yes, I'll spend my summer @ my dear DLSHSI campus. My summer activities? Will gather up my classmates and will have our picnic "lunch" together. Go on and take some pictures for the activities will be participating. Buy,borrow and read some educational books or other reading sources that will be needing and that are related to. Use internet for online search that really has a big help for our things-to-do such as homework. Exercise our minds for another knowledge (i.e. facts, truths, principles). Shop for some of my school stuffs. Have my sunbathe along the smoky haze crossroad. Yes! I'll be having my regular travel from home to my school for this summer. :P This is all about Summer Assignment! Yay. Another quest in my life. :) Every adventure always have an uncertain outcome. But with God, everything has a GREAT outcome. :")

   Unfortunately, before this second paragraph started, Rockmelt begun to close and I don't know why that happens. Good thing, Blogspot has its edit post>drafts. In that case? I felt God. In times of my depression or pessimistic behavior, He always make to us that He will do anything just for us. Ang galing ni God noh? God is good and He's the best!

     Lately, I've been so lame, lonely, depressed or tend to be pessimist about myself. In a way that, I easily get jealous, mad, irritable, judgmental, and so whatever. That I can't have this-and-that things, the things that I really wanted. I must be true to myself, Selfishness' set in motion within myself. As this day ends, I realized how blessed I am. I may not have the luxuries or the amenities but I'm thankful to God that I have this things called BLESSINGS. Having with my family? We may not be rich enough but Mum can enlist me @ good school. She supports my really-needed-things. Give me enough allowance and stuffs. I have the presence of my Dad whose at least have his support to be good in my own study. My 4 brothers that sometimes, in my need-help-days, I have them. 4 barako's that make fun tho there are really naughty and hmm. :)) This family are still different to others. But same with being unperfect, familyhood enough. And so, I love them. I thank them for not aborting me; for not giving me to other family; for giving me shelter, clothes, and food to live. But then, they gave me more. Unlike to other child who are desperately asking for alms just to say "pampatawid gutom lang po". See how we're blessed? Secondly, having my friends. I may not have plenty or lot of friends. But I have friends who stay and true enough to you. They are the reasons why in my problems, I have them to share with. The times that I can't share to anyone but to them. In times when I need someone's presence and they are their to hug you tight and cuddle you. There are friends who let go and took Good Bye's but then, there are people who suddenly enter in your crazy life and say Good Hello's. Until you find each other's differences and acceptance. And see who's the true one. But still, I thank God because I have my friends that I know that I can always count with.

     And of course, I'm really thankful because the greatest blessings I had was my boyfriend, Alaine Cristoffer Orolfo. He's 1 year younger than me. Age really doesn't matter when it comes to Love. I'm happy with him. I know that we're still young and we still have a lot things to encounter. But so far, he's there enough for me. makes me happy. I think that's enough to describe him. :) Happy? Single word but has its thousand meanings :P

     Enough is enough. I shouldn't be ask for more. but instead.... I'll enjoy my life, do the right things, and be thankful for everything. God is good. He will never leave us ALONE. Just trust Him. Smile :)

God. Please help me. :(

     Yes. I've been busy for this past few weeks due to Final week and end of the 2nd semester in 1styear. And then got too bored and had a lots of energy that was taken away by my academics stuffs. Again, here I am, in front of PC typing this stuffs. I had my eye check-up a while ago. It took me so long waiting for my turn. And suddenly the old lady supposedly after my name asked me if it is okay with me to switch our names and I let them to, since she seems pity because of her eye irritation or whatever it is.

     Yesterday, me and Acy had our date. It was actually unplanned. I supposed to be with my classmates that will be having a farewell party @ Kawit. Since, it was so far from my place and I don't have enough money. I decided to be with Acy since he told me that he will be absent on that day. So, we went to Tagaytay. Yes, it's our first time to go there without knowing how to commute all the way long their. So, we just asked the jeepney drivers and it's good that there are really approachable Same with the other passengers. As we land the place, the guy, with a horse named "Mutya", asked us to have a horse backride. But we just went there for our Zipline that's why we lack of money for other stuffs. Took pictures, ate lunch, then had our zipline. and it was really AWESOME! Great experience for both of us. It was fun. So much fun actually. How I wish, we can do it again and again. If we just have enough money :)) Haha. Good thing, there's a photo souvenir, and we both find cute :"> Hahaha. I miss it.

   Life is beautiful. But one thing I just worried about. How I wish, sooner by now. God may answer my prayers. I know sometimes  that I'm not brave enough. As I type this, I want to cry so hard. I don't know what I should do. I know that I did the wrong thing. But please, don'y punish me like this. :( I want to have a chance to make things better. To be a better person. And to do all things right. Please God, I need you. I thank you for everything. I was so blessed having my family, friends and Acy. And even my studies. I don't want these things be affected for the wrong things I've done. Please Lord. Help me. I know you have a reasons for all this. I'm begging, guide me. I don't know what I'm going to do. I need you. Lord, I trust you.. And I know, you will never leave me. ♥