Struggling to get up. Falling again. Standing up again.

     And yes, I'm back! Prolly it's been a month since my finger breadth left and marked some thoughts that usually throw together carelessly on my mind. I've been busy for the whole school year and now, it's the last 2 days of our summer. Will be back on Monday for our summer class. Yes, I'll spend my summer @ my dear DLSHSI campus. My summer activities? Will gather up my classmates and will have our picnic "lunch" together. Go on and take some pictures for the activities will be participating. Buy,borrow and read some educational books or other reading sources that will be needing and that are related to. Use internet for online search that really has a big help for our things-to-do such as homework. Exercise our minds for another knowledge (i.e. facts, truths, principles). Shop for some of my school stuffs. Have my sunbathe along the smoky haze crossroad. Yes! I'll be having my regular travel from home to my school for this summer. :P This is all about Summer Assignment! Yay. Another quest in my life. :) Every adventure always have an uncertain outcome. But with God, everything has a GREAT outcome. :")

   Unfortunately, before this second paragraph started, Rockmelt begun to close and I don't know why that happens. Good thing, Blogspot has its edit post>drafts. In that case? I felt God. In times of my depression or pessimistic behavior, He always make to us that He will do anything just for us. Ang galing ni God noh? God is good and He's the best!

     Lately, I've been so lame, lonely, depressed or tend to be pessimist about myself. In a way that, I easily get jealous, mad, irritable, judgmental, and so whatever. That I can't have this-and-that things, the things that I really wanted. I must be true to myself, Selfishness' set in motion within myself. As this day ends, I realized how blessed I am. I may not have the luxuries or the amenities but I'm thankful to God that I have this things called BLESSINGS. Having with my family? We may not be rich enough but Mum can enlist me @ good school. She supports my really-needed-things. Give me enough allowance and stuffs. I have the presence of my Dad whose at least have his support to be good in my own study. My 4 brothers that sometimes, in my need-help-days, I have them. 4 barako's that make fun tho there are really naughty and hmm. :)) This family are still different to others. But same with being unperfect, familyhood enough. And so, I love them. I thank them for not aborting me; for not giving me to other family; for giving me shelter, clothes, and food to live. But then, they gave me more. Unlike to other child who are desperately asking for alms just to say "pampatawid gutom lang po". See how we're blessed? Secondly, having my friends. I may not have plenty or lot of friends. But I have friends who stay and true enough to you. They are the reasons why in my problems, I have them to share with. The times that I can't share to anyone but to them. In times when I need someone's presence and they are their to hug you tight and cuddle you. There are friends who let go and took Good Bye's but then, there are people who suddenly enter in your crazy life and say Good Hello's. Until you find each other's differences and acceptance. And see who's the true one. But still, I thank God because I have my friends that I know that I can always count with.

     And of course, I'm really thankful because the greatest blessings I had was my boyfriend, Alaine Cristoffer Orolfo. He's 1 year younger than me. Age really doesn't matter when it comes to Love. I'm happy with him. I know that we're still young and we still have a lot things to encounter. But so far, he's there enough for me. makes me happy. I think that's enough to describe him. :) Happy? Single word but has its thousand meanings :P

     Enough is enough. I shouldn't be ask for more. but instead.... I'll enjoy my life, do the right things, and be thankful for everything. God is good. He will never leave us ALONE. Just trust Him. Smile :)

God. Please help me. :(

     Yes. I've been busy for this past few weeks due to Final week and end of the 2nd semester in 1styear. And then got too bored and had a lots of energy that was taken away by my academics stuffs. Again, here I am, in front of PC typing this stuffs. I had my eye check-up a while ago. It took me so long waiting for my turn. And suddenly the old lady supposedly after my name asked me if it is okay with me to switch our names and I let them to, since she seems pity because of her eye irritation or whatever it is.

     Yesterday, me and Acy had our date. It was actually unplanned. I supposed to be with my classmates that will be having a farewell party @ Kawit. Since, it was so far from my place and I don't have enough money. I decided to be with Acy since he told me that he will be absent on that day. So, we went to Tagaytay. Yes, it's our first time to go there without knowing how to commute all the way long their. So, we just asked the jeepney drivers and it's good that there are really approachable Same with the other passengers. As we land the place, the guy, with a horse named "Mutya", asked us to have a horse backride. But we just went there for our Zipline that's why we lack of money for other stuffs. Took pictures, ate lunch, then had our zipline. and it was really AWESOME! Great experience for both of us. It was fun. So much fun actually. How I wish, we can do it again and again. If we just have enough money :)) Haha. Good thing, there's a photo souvenir, and we both find cute :"> Hahaha. I miss it.

   Life is beautiful. But one thing I just worried about. How I wish, sooner by now. God may answer my prayers. I know sometimes  that I'm not brave enough. As I type this, I want to cry so hard. I don't know what I should do. I know that I did the wrong thing. But please, don'y punish me like this. :( I want to have a chance to make things better. To be a better person. And to do all things right. Please God, I need you. I thank you for everything. I was so blessed having my family, friends and Acy. And even my studies. I don't want these things be affected for the wrong things I've done. Please Lord. Help me. I know you have a reasons for all this. I'm begging, guide me. I don't know what I'm going to do. I need you. Lord, I trust you.. And I know, you will never leave me. ♥

How can a woman be expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being

   It's my first post for March 2k11. :)

   Didn't noticed that it's been a long time since my last blog. This past few days, I really enjoyed everything. Tho there are times or circumstances that really ruined my day and bothered my mind, sort of. :)) To school stuffs and same with love life and others. Anyway, it was a blast! First thing that I was truly proud of was I passed Anatomy for Midterms, though I didn't reached my aim grade, since I had a bet with Acy for a hangout slash(/) a date with him on Saturday, which is yesterday. He still treated me and I really enjoyed the adventure with him. Everything was unplanned. We just both go with the flow. Haha.

   So, yesterday was unforgettable experienced and a joyride with him. We're parallel when in comes to being adventurous. Once we're together, we do lots of escapade stuffs. We both woke up around 1pm in the afternoon. And I have a practice to attend by 1pm as well. So great. :)) Venue for our practice was in Imus, @Kuya Pao's crib. Took a shower, eat, fixed my things, ended by 2:30. Tryc-Jeep to Oli-Jeep to GMA-Jeep to Imus. All way long From Laguna to Imus, one of the jeepney we had ride on has been stucked up along Dasma. Rode another jeepney then got @ Golden City (Imus) around 5pm. :)) FAIL! My groupmates was already done practicing and just sing along till they about to go home. So, me and Acy decided to went to MOA to watch Pyromusical. Since, it was too hassle to wait for a bus to baclaran, ride on a jeepney. And along the baclaran, rode a mini jeep aka yellow cab way to MOA. Haha. Moa was overcrowded by people and as well with cute different breed of dogs. Pyromusical was supposed to start by 7. Acy decided to buy a ticket since he's really have the desire to watch out for it. Pyro for Japan started by 7:30 and continued by Pyro in Canada. Japan was really cool and cute but Canada seems fantastic. Ended the Pyro around 9pm. :)) Along watching it, suddenly rain poured and we don't have umbrella to used for. Good thing we have our extra clothes. Haha. Tho we ate pizza before watching fireworks, starvation attacks upon us. Supposedly, we'll buy food for take out. All food chains and resto was filled with people around it. Decided to gome home instead. And I should go home to MY house. :)) We crossed along to every heavy drops of rain just to find for a taxi. But others have their passengers but some are just stupid that they choose they passenger's way. They're all invulnerable. Walked across the road till a good taxi driver gonna gave us a ride. About 2 hours of waiting and my tears was about to run down. One taxi driver has been stopped in front of us, and his passenger walked rapidly to find his friend. Waiting for his passenger to come back. But since he took so  long, I asked the driver that we'll just pay his previous passenger's fee. Good thing, he agreed with me. He Yey! Since it was already 11pm in the evening, rather Acy's gonna bring me back home. Decided to slept @ their home. <3

   Whew, tiring day but an AWESOME experience. We didn't make to have Ice skating again but still, tho it was a so tough, all nasty and rugged things are worth it. This is love ♥. Through hardships and crazy stuffs, he never left me. And one of the best things about him that I really appreciate to. And that's why I love him. In my every failures, he still gives me a reason to smile and hold on to. :)

Know thy self, know thy enemy. A thousand battles, a thousand victories.

"Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any other."

   Happy day :) Anyway, currently having an anatomical conversation with my man now. Haha. Can't define much about this day. Tho there are some almost get on my nerves, Acy's right. I shouldn't mind them. But what I've realized is that I wanted to say thank you for those who hated me or something, those guys make me much stronger for every circumstances. I shouldn't be bothered on them besides it's not my problem to worried about. I may be involved but I know I did the right thing.    I know it's hard to get along with that people. I have my own life and I make my own decisions. They don't control my every actions. So what's the point to be affected from them? I'm not perfect. I used to be emotional sometimes. And there are times that I was already hurt. But there's someone who tries to wipe all my tears and hugged me in my downfall moments, my boyfriend. And there's my friends, my real friends, who always there and makes me laugh all the times. And of course, my family. They are my no.1 inspiration since they have a great expectations on me.

   Yesterday, Funda midterm grades already released. From 83.25, I got 87.85. Good thing. Didn't expect much from it. :") Need more improvements tho. Waiting for AnaPhysio grade, I don't want to expect something where I shouldn't be regret soon. But I hope that I can get a passing grade. Not just a passing but a high grade. :) Surprised about my grades in other subjects and I should keep it up. And yes, like what our Guidance Counselor told me, don't let others distracted you from what you are doing. She's right. Don't let others ruin your life from a non-sense stuffs. Live life to the fullest. :) Enjoy it. God has a reasons from all things happening right from this very moment. and He has His own purpose why this things trying to happen.

   Lots of stuff to be done in this finals. Thesis paper for English and Filipino. Defense @ the same time. I shouldn't forgot the dresses that I'll be wearing. Simultaneously, a group reporting about different systems in Anatomy. And hell Endocrine System assigned to our group. Scientific paper and hmm? What more? Maybe, RetDem for Funda. Fudge, I need to printed out our notes for 2 major subject. Tomo's gonna be a nerdy/geeky day for me. So that, a Holy Sunday with my man for Sunday :) I promised to myself, that after this semester and once I've passed all the subjects, I'll treat myself and will surely waste my summer to a social life. But maybe now, I should lessen it and burden myself to focus on my studies. Besides, it's a 3-weeks grievance. So I should do my very best and exert my fullest effort. :)

   Now, I'm happy. Alaine Cristoffer Aguilar-Orolfo is the one that I shouldn't lose. And worth to hold on. He's the reason for my every smiles. Through all the good times and bad times, he never left me. We encountered so much quarrels with different issues and problems. It gets to the point that we almost give up and let go. But here we are, entangled hands saying, "we'll keep holding on" and not just holding on but staying from each other to whatever may happen, we'll let it solve together. I don't want to lose him, he's all I need. My tears almost run down on my cheeks because to every drops of this lacrimal glands, it says that, I deserve to be Happy :) 

I do not regret one moment of my life :)

   Here @ my room with Acy on the phone call. Since he asked me to post here, I do it so. Haha. Anyway, find this day a GV! Had a great morning. :) Tho I got sulked @ him yesterday's night due to his sleepyhead again. So, our morning welcomed by some of our previous quizzes in AnaPhysio. I got failed to some quizzes, I felt disappointed tho. But I'm still not losing hope. I know that I can pass. I can pass through this AnaPhysio. :)

   For our activity in AnaPhysio a while ago, we had our blood typing. And I got Type AB+. Rare blood type that's why I find it so cool. :) Haha. MiniPrac and quizzes followed. And I don't know what the hell I wrote on my paper. Haha. It's the first quiz in Finals. Whew, last chance. So I should be better. Do my best and have the extra effort.

  After my class, Acy's waiting me outside the campus. Had our dinner @ KFC, fully loaded baby :) Went home and people @ home welcomed me to their slumberdom. -.-" They are all sleeping already except to my eldest bro. Telling me that we have already wifi @ home and my touchpad has already a keyboard. Yey! Haha. So I'm now using lappy here @ my room. Playing musics and other stuffs. I had fun being with him. I miss him. :")

   It's kuya Brian's birthday. Yey, I don't know what are the happenings for today. :) But surely, liquors all day will be exist! :)) Acy's gonna be here latuuur. YEHEY! Another sweet day with him. I should be more inspired with this. Haha. Anyway, so much with this. I more prefer to talk with him in the phone rather this effin' stuffs. haha. :") Ciao. :*

Education is not preparation for life; education is life itself.

   It's been a long time since my last post here. From the past few days, many happenings and memories happened. Bonding that is truly unforgettable.

Feb.13, 2011 Sunday

   It's a day before <3's day and at the same time, our anniversary. He fetch me @ our house and left home early morning. Good thing, there's a near bus along our way to Olivares. Supposedly, me and Acy gonna have our solo date. Since we meet up his mother and ate @ Manila, we first went there to alms for a penny. But then, Acy changed plans and said that we just go to Moa with his family. Had our ice skating with his ate. And Acy is a "fast learner" that I can't go along with him. Skating @ the middle of the "arena" without fall. It breaks my heart. Haha. But I'll be learning soon. Hopefully. Then took up our lunch. His Mama and ate already left us. So we decided to play bowling. And after that, played billiards. After a tiring "mall adventure", we went to "Foot for God" (i think?) and had our foot spa. It was so relaxing. May be expensive, worth it tho. I may be got pissed on him since he changed our plans, but I enjoyed it. Bonding with his family was a fun experience. :)

Feb. 14, 2011 Monday

   It is monday and so, we have both classes. And it's valentine's day and our 1st Anniversary. YAY! Tho we are busy in our class. he fetch me after class and surprisingly, he gave me a bouquet and letters form his classmates. Section actually. Haha. And so, since my gift for him aren't prepared yet due to a busy days. I just bought a cake. Maybe I'll just give him a post-valentine/anniv gift. Also, we played badminton and had a fun roadtrip with him. :) Very happy and contented for what we have now. 

End of cmy morning class now. Gonna back this lappy now. Ciao. :)

Nothing's perfect, the world's not perfect. But it's there for us, trying the best it can; that's what makes it so damn beautiful

   Home sweet home. ♥

   Mid exam was oveeeeer! Sleepless nights and early wake up will be invisible for 3 days. Yey! Hoping for a GV for the results and Midterm grades. Whew. (...) Okay, actually.. I'm not in the mood to post a blog for today. My mind doesn't comprises ideas to share for. AnaPhysio may drained the intelligence on my cerebrum and replaced sternocleidomastoid, bulbospongiosus, tensor fascia latae, and stuffs. Gee. It's already 1:30 and while Acy is on his retreat, we both texting each other. Crap. I really miss him. Valentines and our 1 year are already proximate and I still don't have the idea how we'll celebrate it and how I'll make it special. Anyway, I'll just spend this whole weekend with him and hopefully on the exact date of Valentines. I hope, though I may not surprised him or gave some special stuffs to him. I wanted him to be happy with my presence. :) I love him and don't wanna let go. He always made me smile and to my all downfall times, he always lifted me and gves me the courage to be strong enough. He just wanted to tell me that no matter what, he will never leave me behind. And I can prove it. He really does.

   I don't know how I feel today. I was about to cry while typing this shit stuffs. Maybe because, since I can't hug and kiss him tonight, I'm feeling good that I can express this feelings trough this. This mixed-emotions just tells me that I really miss him and I really do. I'm just happy that I have him. A guy where to my shit things I've done, to my immaturity, to my aggresive attitude, he understands me and never let himself get mad at me. He never feels to me that he wanted to give up despite to all of this. We're not perfect. We fought several times from light things to hardest one. But the most special twist about that was after the secretions of lacrimal gland and so whatever medical terms it may be, we make things more sweeter than before. Stronger than before.

   I just know that, from the bottom of my hypothalamus, I love him. ♥